Archive for November, 2014

The stars are red

Posted: November 30, 2014 in Uncategorized

“I am not real. And yet in a sense, I am that which is the only reality.”

With a lack of sleep and a few hours until the sun hits the horizon again, I do believe I will be astral gliding with Charles Wallace tonight. “I speak the ancient Harmony.” 


“I have one great fear in my heart, that one day when they are turned to loving, they will find that we are turned to hating.”
– Alan Paton, Cry, The Beloved Country

Today, Darren Wilson’s charges were dropped by a Grand Jury. He wasn’t indicted in the killing of Michael Brown. The evidence that Michael Brown robbed a convenience store on Florissant shows him casually at the counter interacting, reaching in for the merchandise. No witnesses to corroborate whether it was a crime or not. Even if a crime were committed, Darren Wilson was not judge, jury, and executioner. Michael Brown’s alleged crime is a moot point. The case has been botched from the beginning. Six drug cases involving Darren Wilson as the one who arrested the indicted suspects have been dropped because they didn’t want Darren Wilson saying anything in those court proceedings that would be used against him in the case against him. He never showed up to these proceedings, the state was told it didn’t have a case for it wasn’t prepared after several opportunities were given for Darren Wilson to show up. This only leads me to think that Darren Wilson is probably a corrupt officer, as that would be the only thing you could use in the case against him if he said anything in court about cases he was involved in. It’s rather like saying somebody refuses to blow into the breathalizer, they’re automatically guilty of being drunk. 

There are protests going on all over the country (L.A., Seattle, Chicago, NYC, Fort Lauderdale, etc.) over this. It’s understandable. The police should be video taped at all times. They should wear cameras. It shows non biased proof of things that go on while they’re on duty. Too many have been assaulted and killed because of bad police officers. IN THIS DAY AND AGE OF ALL TIMES!!!!! The looters shouldn’t be doing what they’re doing, yes I know. But quite a few of them believe the only reason we got the coverage we did for this was because of the looting. The problem is, the peaceful protesters who aren’t looting are the ones getting tear gassed. How does that even make sense?  We’re going to be under the thumb of this police state when they begin declaring martial law over the country. And they’ve already pinpointed who the classes they disdain: minorities, the disabled, the elderly, and the children. 

On top of the violence here, we’re sending our troops to what? A war waged by the rich, so that they can get more rich? So they can become more entitled. 

“I come to this magnificent house of worship tonight
Because my conscience leaves me no other choice
A true revolution of values will lay hand
On the world order and say of war
“This way of settling differences is not just'”
This business of burning human beings with napalm
Of filling our nation’s homes with orphans and widows
Of injecting poisonous drugs of hate into the veins
Of peoples normally humane
Of sending men home from dark and bloody battlefields
Physically handicapped and psychologically deranged
Cannot be reconciled with wisdom, justice, and love”
~ Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 


Posted: November 23, 2014 in Uncategorized

I must reiterate that I have internet access. This wonderful portal to ever growing need to stuff knowledge into my head. I figured it would be best to put the Castlevania soundtrack on while I venture. It rather fits the mood.

I am the demented gatekeeper in the witching hours of the night. Vampires beware. I am caffeinated. Trolls also beware. I have a dictionary and I know how to use that sucker. Zombies think they’re coming through the second gate, they have another thing coming. 

Those who are feel entitled to certain rights will inevitably seek facets of fame. The easiest venue to get this from is Youtube. A good bit of the MGTOWers have found this as well. This is not to mention one name that’s been popping up as a disgusting human being: Sam Pepper. His egocentric sense of entitlement has lead him to a few videos where he is down right sexually harassing women. He’s of Big Brother fame, and figured he could do what he pleased because he’s a prankster. Needless to say, he garnered quite a bit of attention that brought said videos down (the one where he’s squeezing women’s asses and I think the other one where he was coercing girls to kiss him for the camera.) In light of this allegations have been brought forth, not only to the Youtube community but the police as well, that he has raped several young women. Let me be the first to say, yes he has the right to fair trial. But they haven’t even gotten that far after several have come forth. And to anybody who’s defending him, just note that if he feels entitled enough to make videos of himself sexually harassing young women, he’s quite capable of thinking he can get away with raping people.

A new addition to Gamergate is Redaxxion. So I guess in order to fight against somebody who they claim has no bearing on video games, they needed a male equivalent. A phallic representative. Because logic states so. * I haven’t done too much research on this Redaxxion. Not sure if I want to. Piggybacking what Gamergate has become just because you have a penis doesn’t vilify it. Not to mention a couple days ago, they were comparing Anita Sarkeesian to Jack Thompson (a currently disbarred lawyer who was attacking video games back in the day for their violence.) to try to make her look bad, but now because he’s said something insulting to Sarkeesian, they’re now “totes for him.”

This doesn’t even mention how many times I’ve seen them try to refute anything a woman says because now she’s “ugly and unfuckable” for whatever reason they might deem at the moment. Dear MRM followers, nobody asked if you found her pretty and fuckable. How it pertains to what was said by said woman at the time is probably never going to be found just like how many licks it takes to get the Tootsie Roll center of a Tootsie Pop.

And the trend for showing one’s junk as being a replacement for “hello”.
I wanted to bring up a conversation I caught on one of my feeds. A girl was complaining that it was her time of the money h and she felt like she was a guy who had gotten kicked in the balls. A guy responded quickly that women apparently have evolved to take the pain of childbearing, childbirth, and menses related pains, whereas guys have never evolved to take the pain of being kicked in the balls. In some ways, this seems very similar to the arguments I hear in the MGTOW and MRM “manosphere”. It almost sounds as if they’re complaining that the dynamics involving women have evolved, but they don’t want to evolve with it.

*Return of the

 go figure

CBS Stalker

Posted: November 21, 2014 in Uncategorized

The CBS show has its ups and it has its downs. It’s most wonderful up is the creepy cover renditions of songs that fit the theme.

Michelle Branch ~ Creep
Snow Hill ~ Be My Baby
Leelou ~ Don’t You (Forget About Me)
Denmark and Winter ~ Every Breath You Take*
Lo Fang ~ You’re the One I Want
Until the Ribbon Breaks ~ One Way or Another
Wrong Child ft. White Sea ~ Love is a Battlefield
Gary Jules ~ I Want You to Want Me
Snowhill ~ Hungry Like the Wolf
TBC obviously…

Stalker Soundtrack
These slow haunting versions are mesmerizing to my demented brain.

The show itself features a team of LAPD members who specialize in taking down stalkers in the area. Maggie Q’s character is the leader of the team, and the story works in that she was stalked in her past. Dylan McDermott’s character just moved into town and it turns out he’s been presently stalking his ex so he try to be closer to his son. I like the two exact polar opposite perspectives being pitted together to bounce them off each other. I must also say, the story line is also growing on me as the season continues.

* Want an even more haunting version, one should check out Scala and the Kolacney Brothers version of this song…

Printer Gremlins

Posted: November 16, 2014 in Uncategorized


Any attempt to send anything through said printer results in the gremlins revolting against said commands and sabotaging said plans. They also enjoy interrupting the computer with errors that require unplugging it and plugging it back in before performing the reboot. Why couldn’t they just thrive in the Pepsi machine? 


Posted: November 12, 2014 in Uncategorized

It makes you see and hear things that really aren’t there, driving you insane until eventual death. I really don’t enjoy my eyes playing tricks on me. 

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Ears perk up at the ghostly voice floating through the room, wondering just what that was. Giant spider jumps out in my peripheral vision. The poundage on the scale not equaling what was scaled out. This mirror has got to be destroyed. 

And no, I’m not interested. Thank you. 

How about something from “that side of the internet”?
Damn! You caught me. 

“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.”

― Stephen King

We are currently plagued with an entitlement culture. This has become a petri dish for many violent behaviors that the culture they are done in is overlooked because these individuals have been allowed to get away with whatever they want to as they avoid consequences of their actions.

Maybe those who are in the establishment need to begin teaching their kids to be upstanding citizens rather than teaching them that because they’re entitled, they should be able to get away with being dickheads. Hearing and seeing the youth among the more privileged doing shit “because they can get away with it” isn’t anything new, but it doesn’t mean we’re not tired of their families not making them accountable for their actions. The longer they’re allowed to be brats, the more it sets in, and they become the epitome of what’s wrong with adult society.

The entitled themselves either go the horrendous edge of fully violent behavior (note: Steubenville, Eliot Rodgers, Casey Anthony, George Zimmerman, Ethan Couch and his “Affluenza”, and the case of Maren Sanchez who was stabbed because she wouldn’t go to prom with a guy. This is not to mention the many cases that involve police on civilian violence, or the stuff that generally is hush-hush among the more elite members of society.) or there are many cases where the entitled manipulate those around them to the point of horrific violent behavior via means of peer pressure and bullying. 

It is also in this petri dish that we find many who are seeing these dark things come to the surface and would like to put an end to it. But then, for some odd reason, those who have been entitled all this time don’t like their world “crumbling down.” A lot of what can be seen as people are trying to come to a consensus about what must be done, we also see a horrible amount of backlash among those who are basically in the same boat. We should be working together to make this world a better place, right? Apparently that idea must be so wrong, of course.

One of the recent backlashes can be described as mostly the Men Going Their Own Way (MGTOW) movement. Be sure to check out what’s going on in their “manosphere” as they like to call it. Quite a few are open (with youtube videos that actually have their faces in the videos) but mostly they like to keep themselves anonymous on the internet. A few pretend it’s because they don’t want man-hating feminists to stomp on their jewels, but it’s pretty much because this movement is full of trolls.  

1a. Noun
One who posts a deliberately provocative message to a newsgroup or message board with the intention of causing maximum disruption and argument.

1b. Noun
A person who, on a message forum of some type, attacks and flames other members of the forum for any of a number of reasons such as rank, previous disagreements, sex, status, ect.
A troll usually flames threads without staying on topic, unlike a “Flamer” who flames a thread because he/she disagrees with the content of the thread.

1c. Noun
A member of an internet forum who continually harangues and harasses others. Someone with nothing worthwhile to add to a certain conversation, but rather continually threadjacks or changes the subject, as well as thinks every member of the forum is talking about them and only them. Trolls often go by multiple names to circumvent getting banned.

2a. Noun
Sometimes compared to the Japanese ‘Oni’, a troll is a supernatural creature of Scandinavian folklore, whose race was thought to have carried massive stones into the countryside (although actually the result of glaciers). Lives in hills, mountains, caves, or under bridges. They are stupid, large, brutish, hairy, long-nosed, and bug-eyed, and may also have multiple heads or horns. Trolls love to eat people, especially small children.
The Females of the species are generally kinder and more intelligent, but still fairly hideous.

2b. Noun
An aesthetically repulsive person, often has terrible social skills, usually a woman. See Troglodyte.

2c. Noun
An old, unattractive gay man who hits on young men, and cannot seem to understand that they want nothing to do with him.

3a. Verb
To fish by dragging bait behind a moving motor-boat.

3b. Verb
To cruise for immediate sexual pleasure without commitment. Often characterized by an older man, seeking a younger man, or any man for immediate, often anonymous sexual contact.

4. Noun
A joke disguised as an outrageously stupid statement or question, intended to trap people into believing it is serious.

5. Verb
To use acid and ectasy simulataneously. See trolling.
(Comes from ‘Tripping’ on acid, and ‘Rolling’ on ecstasy)

6. Noun
A toy popular in the 1980’s, a ‘troll’ is a cute little plastic trolls with fluffy, colored hair.
^Any of these could probably describe somebody on the internet who is basically trolling. 
In the MGTOW “manosphere”, at least as of late, there have been many “controversies” they have been nagging about. The “Fappening”, Gamergate, and the “Quinnspiracy.” I will be addressing these, among other things. 
The “Fappening” happened because hackers got into the Apple Cloud and found nudes uploaded of many celebrities. Then they posted these pictures online for the public to view. After the first wave, Emma Watson made a speech for HeForShe, and then was given a countdown ultimatum involving her supposed nudes being available for them to post publicly. This has become revenge porn. It’s tabloid sized revenge porn. Anybody who justifies revenge porn is a fucktard. Not sure what was going on with the countdown website, because apparently that was even put together by people who elaborately troll people. They make websites and odd videos and their goal is have them go viral. Just note that they decided to piggyback the “Fappening”, however, to achieve their goal this time. 

*Note that Gamergate is supposedly about game journalism ethics, just that too many who have piggybacked onto the gamergate cause are misogynists.
As for Anita Sarkeesian, I’m going to have to agree with those who have pretty much “taken her side” as some would like to say. In the reviewing world, not everyone is going to have the same opinion as you. If you cannot grasp that then buckle up, buttercup, it’s going to be a bumpy ride. You are allowed to disagree with her, but the gross response to what she has said is deplorable. Anytime you mention her name, you get similar responses. What it boils down to is these people are afraid somebody’s going to take away their porn and video games. Bringing new changes and new ideas to the video game world should be as with any art form. Allow the creativity to flow rather than allowing it to stay the status quo, becoming stagnant and boring. Don’t throw a tantrum, you’re big boys now. Hike up your big boy pants already and don’t lose your shit because your little egocentric world just got a new perspective. But instead, I guess the logical thing to do is create Gamergate. This is under the pretense that they are attempting to abolish supposed corruption. Look it up on Youtube. The MGTOW red pill is taking you down the rabbit hole and I’m pretty sure the end of the tunnel is mostly bunny turds. Along with it is the Gamergate response to feminists such as Anita Sarkeesian. Pretty sure MGTOW’s hear the word feminist and the first thing they do is think of Anita Sarkeesian. The second name they are against is Zoe Quinn. This has made the “Quinnspiracy”, about an indie game designer who has been harassed for basically being a woman, it seems. She held some influence over a reviewer site, and some believe that would make the job of a reviewer less respectable? I heard this spiel before…remember when the two co-founders of Tindr broke up with one another? The male counterpart told her that having a woman as a leader in the company would make the company less respected. I guess it could be worse. A woman fired from Apple for asking for a raise was called a “fat, black dyke” by one of the managers.Because that’s a logical reason to fire people these days.
Although I can see some sense in coming together and discussing actual issues between both sides, I’m pretty sure the same entitlement culture we live in has been the nasty cause behind people figuratively screaming at each other, but both sets have their fingers in their ears and aren’t listening. A couple of other issues I wanted to bring up was a MGTOWer bringing up that men are raped in prison all the time. I’m really not sure how that constitutes a woman being raped at a party as okay. First off, she went to said party to have fun and of her own choice. Yes, most women who do not surround themselves with friends at these parties are considered naive, or brave, or both. Because to go out and have fun at a party should result in having fun. It should not result in passing out, and while being passed out, being preyed upon, videotaped, and talked about around school before you even know what had gone on because you were passed out. If you go to prison because you think it’s fun and you want to go to prison, then um…yay for you? Also please keep in mind that when you correlate these two events together, you are saying that these boys who find themselves entitled enough to prey upon others like they did are as horrible as the degenerates in prison who do the same thing. Thank you for making my point for me. 
There is one more thing I wanted to bring up. An MRM WomanAgainstFeminism recently brought up a tweet that resounds of quite a few things I’ve been hearing in the MRM/MGTOW community about “we need to kill all men” coming from the feminist movement. The video she is referencing is actually a conference about Microsoft security and discussing the many malware plagues your computer can get from unsolicited email. One of these was appealing to the men’s horniness as it was one of those pretty girls wants to hook up with you kind of scenarios. We all see those. We all know it’s probably some guy from Russia trying to hack your shit or whatever. The joke was that in order to stop these things from happening, maybe we should kill all men and our computers can finally be secure. The men laughed at the conference. I’m rather tired of people taking things out of context, as this is a prime example of it happening. If the whole MRM rant about “killing all men” being swapped around has anything to do with this video at that conference, I’m going to need some speycide stat. 
I do, however, want to bring up that there are things that really getting in the way of the feminist movement being taken seriously. Fake rape allegations are bullshit. In the long run, they allow those who are really using rape as part of their MO to get away with it easier. And I do want to let it be known, I wouldn’t say the whole culture of this entitlement is rape culture, but I would like it to be known that rape culture is part of the flotsam and jetsam that is the entitlement culture. 

*note that is written because while I type, you cannot hear the deflection in my voice, and some have taken my sarcasm seriously even if I do put an inflection 

Five Nights at Freddy’s 2

Posted: November 9, 2014 in Uncategorized

So this is a thing now. Upon more inspection of the back story, it is now confirmed (at least in my mind) that this is someone’s rendition of hell. Freddy Fazbear’s Pizza was experiencing hard times after five children in the past went missing and the animatronic puppets apparently have been found oozing blood, mucus, and smell horrendous. This perpetrates a past employee (quite possibly the one you’re playing) and that answers my question on how your character got extorted into this job in the first place and doesn’t worry about how chinky the pay is.

In December of 1993, five employees were actually shot at a Chuck E. Cheese in Aurora, CO. A  man who was fired months previously was hiding in the bathroom until they were closing up. He picked off the three employees cleaning the arcade and lobby before heading to the kitchen, capping the cook in the jaw. Then he rounded it up by shooting the manager in the office in the back office. He was later tried and convicted for this, as the cameras recorded everything and the cook survived after playing dead after he was shot. Correlate this to the game as you will.

This brings me back to the sequel, because apparently this is hell and you will not escape its clutches that easily. Now you’re trapped with not only physical demon puppets and their little astral gliding friend, Golden Freddy, but meet up with some new animatronics who are out to kill the old ones. So you wear a mask to avoid the old ones, but the news ones don’t like the mask. I’ll just allow myself to be reminded that my ghosts and gremlins are relatively harmless, and that the zombies are kept out by a highly effective fence.

Did I mention The Puppet and the Music Box that keeps the Puppet from killing you? Okay, I’m somewhat trying to laugh away the creepiness now. 

Post Apocalyptic Random Times #2

Posted: November 6, 2014 in Uncategorized