Archive for January, 2005

Posted: January 31, 2005 in Uncategorized

while everyone else is at the harding bubble, spreading around disease like the plague…i’m praying for you….because you have school and jobs on top of being miserable….

while everyone else in the laplace mentality continually go downward into their stupidity, i’m trying to avoid having my IQ level drop to theirs….and haven’t really hung around them since i got back….

although as soon as i see david, i have to tell him that his ex doesn’t want anything do with him because he needs to grow up


Posted: January 29, 2005 in Uncategorized

i have toys….as in robin williams, joan cusack, michael gambon, robin wright, and ll cool j….mix in a bit of insanity based in a toy factory and the surrounding area with a war obsessed general….and u get toys

now i’m going to head to wal-mart to get a copy of kiss the girls…and if january man is still there….i think i’ll get it too

Posted: January 28, 2005 in Uncategorized

my room is half way clean!!!!!!

Posted: January 26, 2005 in Uncategorized

my heart bleeds for all you gits who think you have it under control

Posted: January 25, 2005 in Uncategorized


own domain, paid LJ account, concerts, travelling, mall, music, movies, books


insurance, gas, food, credit card bill, phone bill, modem


future home, future expenses, pay off loan

(nobody’s as prepared as me….bwahahahahaha!!!!)

Posted: January 24, 2005 in Uncategorized

masquerade…paper faces on parade…masquerade….hide your face in a mask so the world will never find you….

Posted: January 24, 2005 in Uncategorized

okay here’s the deal….anybody reading this and wants to be added to my real people list on my web sit….send a picture of yourself to my email address at 

if u want to get my newsletter, you’re more than welcome to either go to the web site and sign up yourself or give your request to me via email at the same address as the pictures to be sent (or you could just reply….whatever…)

as for updates in my life….i have no life…so there’s not much reason to update….

Posted: January 23, 2005 in Uncategorized

my chemical romance, the used, killswitch engage, static lulluby, underoath….and the closest they’re getting to me is jacksonville or orlando, florida….oh well….i’m travelling big time this summer….if i start in may….gonna head to indiana and see my old elementary school and some from the old church congregation….then it’s on to the mall of america and the west edmonton mall…then it’s over to ontario to see ian and becky (my canadian hotties) and go to mainframe entertainment…then over to niagra falls and into new york….make sure i have enough money to park my car for a while and use the train (cheaper way to travel, i must assure u)….and then it’s back to indiana to drop off jen (the laplace hottie) and head down to tulsa or lubbock (depending on parents’ plans)

Posted: January 22, 2005 in Uncategorized

yesterday i was so up and at ’em….i was ready to take on the world…and today, all i want to do is curl up and die (guess they were right when they suggested i get over the counter lithium when i searched for anti-viruses for my computer)
but how could it possibly be biological when environment plays too much of a role? i woke up today, and got a notice that i still owe harding money (lovely how my prediction that when i needed something like…say….PROOF OF ENROLLMENT *cough* they fail to send it…but they insist on sending the bill….i’m currently going to see if that will count as proof of enrollment because harding sux and i have to do everything on my own) i have obligations too, you know…and I CAN’T DO ANYTHING because it all falls apart the moment i pick it up off the floor….and so i’m trying to put the jigsaw puzzle back together so i can hang it up on the wall….

eh….just forget it….i promised myself i wouldn’t stress myself so much this year (and if i can keep that promise….maybe i could actually have something go right….)

“they can restrict my freedom, but they cannot take away my apathy”

Posted: January 21, 2005 in Uncategorized

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects the man’s life. I chose the rib, which protects the heart. Around this one bone, I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be over him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side. You are my perfect angel. You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart. Your eyes – don’t change them. You lips – so lovely they are when they part in prayer. Your nose – so perfect in form. Your hands – so gentle to touch. I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep; I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are the extension of me. Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God. So man, treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, the heart of your Father, and the heart of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.