Archive for December, 2004

Posted: December 13, 2004 in Uncategorized

if it is no attainable by my own madness, then it shall simply have to be put aside for others to conquer…..*pouts*

i’m sick….dammit! *touches the oven for the umpteenth time in her life*


well got out of my finals with nary a scratch….and perhaps i should read up on my machievelli and milton now…but oh well….it will probably just be for quoting and trivia purposes anyway…..


i’m currently longing to walk around in a grassy knoll in ireland for some odd reason…..

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Posted: December 12, 2004 in Uncategorized

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name
In your recollection
Down among a million say

Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed and passed over
When I’ve looked right through
See you naked but oblivious
And you don’t
See
Me

But I threw you the obvious
Just to see if there’s more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy
Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see, see through it all
And see through
See you
So I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy

Oh well
Oh well
Apparently nothing
Apparently nothing at all


You don’t see me at all…..

Posted: December 11, 2004 in Uncategorized

everyone look at me, chasing sirens! and trying to discover what’s wrong with my mind…..


i have a house (IRL and in narnia….) so my life is a bit more completed…..and dad has a truck and ash has a friend with a truck and bonnie and conn have a mini van….so i have plenty of options for vehicles to move my stuff…..scot and i are gonna hang out tonight….*does a little dance of joy* and i think i’m going to ask him some upfront questions about how he feels about this whole relationship thing….i want to know…so i don’t annoy him….i am going application hunting today (so i can appease my mum in the fact that i looked instead of just resting on the back of that gas station) and my loan info is all fixed…..yay! m/ >_< m/


transglobal spectacle, with post mortum fame….popsicle cannibal can you hear me? rainbow dementia smiles, everyone smiles…..this small reality’s a pixie playland

Posted: December 10, 2004 in Uncategorized
Is it worth it can you even hear me?
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I've felt it for a while now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

(Chorus)
So here I am it's in my hand
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

And won’t you think I’m pretty
When I’m standing top the bright lit city
And I’ll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you’re alive and care
I promise I will take you there
And we’ll drink and dance the night away
We’ll drink and dance the night away

(Repeat Chorus)
Savor every moment of this

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

And won’t you think I’m pretty
When I’m standing top the bright lit city
And I’ll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
As long as you’re alive and care
I promise I will take you there
As long as you’re alive and care
I promise I will take you there

(repeat Chorus)
Savor every moment of this (x3)

Posted: December 9, 2004 in Uncategorized

so a random day of achievement (although i’m lost in ettinsmoor….and i couldn’t get the oxen and start a revolution), hopefully i can get enough money to cover this apartment down payment or whatever it’s called by the end of next week so i can get ahold of them….this weekend amy and i are going job hunting (mainly for her….but just in case i don’t get the job at the gas station because they want somebody now….i need a back up plan) i should be able to pay a substantial amount of rent after christmas (from my kfc job….) but that won’t cover all 5 months or so……then i found a computer repair place for cheap….so i’m going to use my money from my check on them fixing severus jr. and just warn everyone that christmas presents will be late this year (except christa’s because i’m writing a story and it’s easy to make) which leaves kat, emily, scot, mandi and amy on the special list….i’ll have to get presents for the parents and my sis (they wouldn’t stand having christmas late) 


so question being….anybody have a truck that can help me move my junk from the dorm to an apartment?

Posted: December 9, 2004 in Uncategorized

disclaimer: reading this xanga means that u realize that there will
be drama (life is drama…according to TNT….so live with it) and if i
rant to u in person…it’s b/c u asked…not b/c i randomly ranted

i dream in blood red….tipping the leaves of the trees….switchblade fever….cure this disease (start of anaestethic lulluby)

need to come up with a title for my “self-centered demi-god”
poem….btw….end the heartache by kill switch engage is awesome (if u
ever read this, brandon….thanx)

i found out what that song that was stuck in my head is
called…..green day’s “boulevard of broken dreams” and that song that
i thought was coldplay was snow patrol’s “run”

light up….light up….as if you have a choice….and even if u cannot hear my voice….i’m here for you dear

Posted: December 8, 2004 in Uncategorized


is it just me? or does joan cusack look hot in a headmistress costume?

Posted: December 8, 2004 in Uncategorized

so this little game is a bit more than you can handle, eh? confused as
to why people are mad at you….well take a nice look at what you’ve
done….constantly holding the barrel of a gun to their heads until
they’re fed up with your little “i’ll kill you” game….they have the
trigger in their finger now, duckie! pointing the barrel at you….how
you like it, pet? how do you like them now? oh yeah….defend
yourself….ruin a good apology in the process….because the safety’s
off the gun this time….waving in your face….cocking back the
hammer….cowering now, eh?

so this love i have to defend at the moment….is going pretty
well….it’s a bit on the undeterminible side….but i assume i’ve won
him over….i’m assuming the poem was the clincher…..i need to fix my
bike….and get an appointment with the HU loan officer…..life is
spectaculous!

Posted: December 7, 2004 in Uncategorized

i’m such a posting whore tonight


1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What’s the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Would you hug me?
10. Physically, what stands out?
11. Emotionally, what stands out?
12. Do you wish I was cooler?
13. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
14. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. .
15. Am I loveable?
16. Describe me in one word.
17. What was your first impression?
18. Do you still think that way about me now?
19. What do you think my weakness is?
20. Do you think I’ll get married?
21. What makes me happy?
22. What makes me sad?
23. What reminds you of me?
24. If you could give me anything what would it be?
25. How well do you know me?
26. When’s the last time you saw me?
27. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t (ie: here’s your chance!)?
28. Do you think I could kill someone?
29. Do you think you’re a better person for having known me?

Posted: December 7, 2004 in Uncategorized






I do not know how to love you
Your love is so obscure
I don’t believe I’ve met such a love
in all my days in this world
It creeps ever slowly
up the trellace of my spine
Sinking into the bloodstream
And floating through my mind
The divinity of your lips
How I shy away in your presence
While it is your light that consumes me
As I fall into your essence
Shield me from the wind
Hold me firm to the floor
Lest I fall away
From you, my steadfast anchor