Archive for December, 2004

Posted: December 21, 2004 in Uncategorized

the children of today are not taught the way they should be….they are sent on their way ignorant as to the basics they need to succeed in life….it is not a coincidence that my teachers taught me arithmatic, writing, and reading skills when i was younger….so i wonder why so many children are allowed to skip undauntingly through the school system without learning their basics…and their parents don’t give a flying fig as whether these children understand these basics….they’re just happy that the kid is out of their hair….i honestly think that i may be needed to help tutor one of these days….because i’ve noticed that the ones that aren’t getting what they need are very shy in asking for it…and the world just needs more perceptive stand-by’ers to pick out the ones that are floating dangerously around like flotsam and jetsam in the sea of learning while the teacher can only focus on the ones she sees

Posted: December 21, 2004 in Uncategorized

so i’m 19….and i have a bad memory….and bad joints….and a lovely feeling of the world being constantly on my shoulders……go suck on that, martha stewart!

Posted: December 20, 2004 in Uncategorized

what’s your name, little girl? what’s your name?


okay….so i got home….yeah….so? got it set up to work on tuesday….lost my voice….couldn’t sing…..was weirded out by jess and david flirting the whole time i was with them…..and now have to wait until thursday to work because i told my boss that my voice isn’t good enough to take the cashier line and that i’d still be willing to work or whatever….but she wanted me to not come in sick….so yeah….whatever…..this is my united states of whatever…..went to the theatre tonight….i missed st. john theatre almost as much as i missed my kitty….told mr. daley that i heard he needed me to slap some sense into his seniors….he found it amusing…..my sister is an official black belt (that’s hers for life, baby!) and now she’s working her way to trainee status….that’s right….she’s gonna be one of the teachers when the original guy is too busy…..my sister rawks more than yours does! and i now have a new cousin once removed….her name’s lily…and my pseudo niece, eva, should be born within the next month….yay! i need to get mr. bryan and mrs. ami christmas presents now


 

Posted: December 19, 2004 in Uncategorized

if u write a quiz…we will gank it


THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. brenna
2. b.k.
3. dischord

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1.woodstockmead
2.peacemoccassin
3.meghex_user

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1.my singing voice
2.my eye color
3.sense of humor (however morbid it may get)

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF
1.my weight
2.my lisp
3.my habit of being cold to people

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1.irish
2.british
3.cherokee (doesn’t everyone from the south have this?) 

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1.being utterly alone
2.Boo-bah
3.damnation

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1.vitamin
2.prayer
3.music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1.a bracelet indicating i’m underaged to drink at tommy b’s
2.corderoy carpenter pants
3. my “arms wide open” shirt

THREE OF YOUR FAV BANDS/ARTISTS RIGHT NOW
1.Breaking Benjamin
2.Shinedown
3. Evanescence

THREE OF YOUR FAV SONGS AT PRESENT
1.”Forgive Me” ~ Evanescence
2.”Vindicated” ~ Dashboard Confessional
3. “Time for People” ~ Atomship 


THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1.cleaning my parents house (because i was a slob as a kid and my parents don’t have time to clean up my accumulated mess)
2. getting a good job to afford a car, and some money in the bank to eventually pay off those bloody loans
3. some good grades to eventually graduate in the future (hopefully within the time constraints i gave myself 5 years ago)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (besides love)
1. support
2.communication (this includes honesty without offense)
3. comfort

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1.i’m hiding (even if i don’t do it well)
2.i’m dying (because i’m mortal)
3.i’m holy

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX YOU FIND APPEALING
1.eyes filled with insight
2.sense of humor (you can tell a lot about a man by seeing what the man can laugh at)
3.the way he holds hands

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO
1.do anything right
2.play basketball (i’m short, i’m white, i’m female)
3.stay happy

THREE OF YOUR FAV HOBBIES
1.listening to music
2.reading
3.walking

THREE THINGS YOU REALLY WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW
1.cuddle
2.walk in a grassy knoll in ireland
3.get rid of this cough

THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING
1.art therapy
2.teaching
3.author

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1.europe
2.colorado
3.austria

THREE KIDS NAMES
1.trevor leon
2.aris jane
3.emiliana kay

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1.be a doctor of psychology
2.conquer the world
3.show my family that i’m really on top of things (even if they claim i’m not)

Posted: December 19, 2004 in Uncategorized

so my mother wants me to stay home if i can’t go back to school…..now tempting as it might sound….do i really want to emulate my cousin? well it would only be for one semester….not like jared did….but still….i feel rather uneasy coming back without having some big purpose….and people keep trying to stuff down my throat that my choices are wrong….well just because i’m not amy mcdoniel does not make me a sub human….it’s bad enough that i’m sick and irritable….but people keep asking me if i’m sure about the choices i’ve made….well there’s no point in going back in a time machine and making those choices over again….now is there? and then after all that’s happened…..which although loads of people i know have gone through just as much at some point in their lives, so they should just chill and leave me be…..b/c you’d think they’d understand instead of trying to stuff down my throat how much better they are….i recall stories of these same people going through a hard time….and they crumbled instead of actually attempting the things i’ve attempted (me: attempting to get on my feet even though i’ve been driven to my knees…..them not even trying to get off their knees in the mean time) well i’m not letting it get in the way of my dreams….i’m just working a detour on the service road until the actual highway is fixed…..

Posted: December 17, 2004 in Uncategorized

may the power of my radio active snot make u desist

Posted: December 16, 2004 in Uncategorized

i looked in the mirror today and i realized i’m nothing but an ugly little troll….thanx mirror….your honesty gives me goosebumps of joy *rolls eyes*


so yeah….i’m worth 80 dollars…so screw all u broke ppl…u suck

Posted: December 15, 2004 in Uncategorized

in about an hour, i’m going to head out to hunt apartments in the area of walking distance….i’m hoping to find somebody who’s still on campus to walk with me, esp. somebody with experience in apartment hunting….i haven’t a clue as to what i’m doing, really….oh well….i need to just take a deep breath and go after what i want…..and i’ll eventually get it….all i need is to make sure amy’s staying in town and see if ash would like to live with us for a short time too…and to think…..me being one of the ppl who actually could stand living with my parents is the actual one moving out on my own and the ones who can’t stand their parents and their rules are still living home with their parents…..

Posted: December 15, 2004 in Uncategorized

have u ever had that aching feeling behind your eyes when you didn’t want to wade thru somebody’s bullshit? my whole body aches….because it just finally gave up on being productive….doesn’t mean i’m not still being productive…just that my body’s fighting with me more than you can know….i don’t want to get out of bed…..i don’t want to find a place to live….i don’t want to deal with idiots….and i certainly don’t want to achieve anything except maybe sleep…..loads of sleep….maybe the dealings of my mind….and what’s more….i don’t like it when ppl who are deliberately getting involved tell me they’re not….i hate ppl….and i hate random idiots online who let their brats get into a teenager chat rooms (when they’re not really a teenager….only 12…mind u) at like midnight and then when i think it’s a dumb pedophile looking for 11 yr old girls (who wouldn’t be in there anyways…because it’s a bloody teenager flirting chat room….and most the ppl in there are at least 16) then calls me a bloody pervert for suspecting that the kid might be a pervert…..and where is he? asia? it was midnight according to my clock and he claims it was only 5 pm where he was at…..and that he was a cop and has to deal with scum like me all the time….doesn’t even know me…but apparently since he keeps talking to me…..i’m automatically harassing him….


god! i don’t care anymore…..just suck it up and smile, brenna….they don’t care either….and they hate it when u don’t smile like you’re supposed to…..

Posted: December 14, 2004 in Uncategorized

i’m a bloody annoyance….and it’s easy to see in your eyes that you
were irritated by me….i’m nothing but a bloody annoyance….and it’s
easy to tell that you didn’t want to be around me….
and so i hide in my hermit hole….deep in the forest….trying to let
you return to your life….you don’t need me to annoy you….and you
definitely don’t need my strife (chorus to crown of thorns….)

i lost the house and a bit of hope all in one day….yay! for subtle
pissiness directed towards me….i’m very tempted to just refer back to
my bloody bitter gratitude poem for a post….and my immune system let
me down this week…so my head feels like it’s floating (sinus
infection…most likely), my throat is sore…and my ear is
hurting….no more ear infections….please! i’ll do anything to not
get an ear infection….and while you’re at it….i’ll do anything to
not get the flu *shudders at the mention of the word*

i walk a lonely street….along this boulevard of broken dreams….